Taking Risks

The person I want to talk to is the person I am extremely shy to face now.

I felt I jeopardize our future for taking a risk that is completely blurry at the moment. I feel embarrass because I am one who said that will keep everything intact until the desired amount is accumulated.

What can I do?

He replied in a very understanding manner and I know he is sincere.

I am really guilty about it.

I am hoping that I can patch things up this next month and I am praying that everything will be worth the risk.

I am so sad.

SOSAM

Updates of my life

My last post was two months ago. I was busy building audience for my beauty site while maintaining my general blog.

I changed Spry Ardent Mulish to Ramble & Relish then dishysammy went live.

Have you notice that I changed the layout of this blog too?

Well I am looking for a place to vent. My SNS turned to be an open book now and I am not regretting the result.

I still want to fulfill my dream of earning money through my blog.

Many people were asking me if I am a makeup artist in the making but I answered them no. I really want to write. I am aiming to be every girls’ first aid when they need something in life.

My makeup posts portrays that if we cannot hire a makeup artist to make us beautiful we can do it ourselves.

My reviews on products give other consumers idea whether to buy or not.

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This is my space in the world wide web where I do not think the order of my words. Things just pop in and out my head. I just want to let it out.

Especially about this one.

PREGNANCY

My tweets mentioned that I am feeling out of place now. TRUE!! Because now that I have two pregnant colleagues it seems that I am left behind because I cannot relate to their soon-to-be-mommy chit chats.

Plus the issue of RH bill.

Plus marriage talks in between.

I do not want to be married and be pregnant now because I feel that I am in the right time where I can dictate where my career is leading.

I want so many things.

I will elaborate in my next post my point regarding the issues I mentioned above.

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For now I am just keeping my sanity.

I hope you are enjoying my other blogs.

For beauty / style / health and everything in between about women visit http://dishysammy.com

For food / travel/ news and human interest visit http://samlanuza.com

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xoxo,

SAMMY

Birthday Like a Sir

Taking a break from my Boracay posts I still have one left; I will share my bf’s 24^th birthday bash. He turned 24 last June 17 and we celebrated it the evening of 16th until dawn.

Happy Birthday BABE!

I am sharing this to you because I was the one who prepared the food for the visitors of course with the help of his mom, sister, aunt, and their helper.

This year was different because totally I haven’t planned anything. He just requested me to make lasagna but I ended up cooking almost everything.

Here’s the menu:

1. Lasagna
2. Pancit Bihon (Noodles)
3. Lumpiang Shanghai (Spring Rolls)
4. Inihaw na Liempo (Grilled Liempo)
5. Buffalo Wings
6. Sisig (Sizzling Pork)
7. Adobong Kambing (A goat dish)
8. Pork Caldereta
9. California Maki
10. Seaweed Pandan Salad

Since I was the one in charge I didn’t have time to document the whole process and results of my “catering” but some friends captured it.

I finished cooking everything around 9pm I guess and I was never hungry.

And for the main event and my only surprise for the night (which he already trolled because he entered the kitchen when I was about to brought the cake out). My friend AJ made this ‘Like a Sir"’ cupcakes.

Forgive my handwriting readers and the photo bum at the back I am excited for our baking session but Tools and ingredients are too expensive you know.

Oh well let’s go to my sentiments….

I am totally not complaining that I made this for him. Some said that I made myself a maid for that day and I should have cooked the Lasagna at home and arrived at their house astonishing. Although my arms, my legs, and back hurt that night, doing this for him makes me happy. Living one a day at time with this person makes the future nonetheless clearer that even though I don’t have bold plans about us I see myself doing this for the rest of my life. Plus the vision of what I want (I stated in my Facebook status) is to become a good example to my daughter someday – A good wife and a mother.

He is now in Singapore to attend the Broadcast Asia 2012 and will be back on Thursday.

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It was also Father’s Day that day so belated Happy Father’s Day to all daddy’s in the world.  I will write a post blog regarding Father’s Day.

Until my next time,

Sammy

Yellow Wednesday, driving in EDSA will never be easy….

Today I am wearing a very cute dress with a very cute print.

I got this from Get Laud. My best friend forced me to buy this. LOL I am just kidding. I am not in uniform because I have 6 am driving class (main road driving), which I will discuss in a while and a birthday gathering to attend.

Let’s  go back to the Driving 101.

It’s my 14th hour today and my lesson is about main road driving. We started reviewing the parking - vertical, horizontal, diagonal, and parallel. We also did hanging , stop and go procedure before we tried EDSA. Today’s experience is frightening no matter how defensive driver you are, other vehicles’ movement are not in your hands and I learned that I have to be – alive, alert, awake, and enthusiastic   sounds like a nursery rhyme huh? LOL

I am also having issues using different types of car. I was using a wagon last Sunday and back to sedan today. Each car have different pedals and I can’t foresee how should I step on the clutch, brakes, and gas. They say I will learn someday, I just have to incorporate it in my system like breathing.

Since I am just starting I hope one day I could get use to it. Practice makes perfect right.

But I am sure everyday will be a practice because each day road situation varies. I will not be dealing with same cars and same situation.

I am not losing hope on this. I still have seven more hours to master driving.

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I had a good night sleep by the way, maybe I was just paranoid about my grandma’s death and I thought she’s everywhere.

Also I have something in mind now that I want to pursue  but I need a booster, I know I can do that. I hope I can stop procrastinating and do it right away. 

Oh I am running out of words to say so I am just going to back blog on my food trips. Visit my other blog here and show me some love.

I hope everyone is having a good time.

 

Kisses,

Sammy

My Manic Monday: Are ghosts true?

Photo courtesy of Google Images.

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It’s still a good day though despite.

I was asked to write for an inspirational speech which I do not have any idea about, but hey I was still able to do it. I just didn’t like the idea how the task was given to me.

Oh well….

I am writing because I am having hard time sleeping. Do you believe in ghosts? Nine days? Forty days? and other beliefs on death on you relative.

We celebrated the ninth day of my grand mother yesterday and just when we finished praying the rosary and novena the light went off. Just before this event happened, I heard her cleared her throat around 4:30 am and I can’t barely sleep.

This my third encounter on these things.

What do you know about third eyes?

I am hoping to get a good night sleep tonight. As fright is not worth my eye bags.

Another news….

After seeing my doctor couple of weeks ago and took the medicine she prescribe…. it’d work… not permanently I still have to come back for series of tests and I a hoping science can do something about my situation and this is not that serious.

I need to be okay about this matter as I want to create a blog in the future about Motherhood.

Did I intrigued you in some way?

hmmmm

Also,

 

My Firmoo Glasses arrived, just in time for my Boracay trip this Saturday. I hope it will not rain that much so I can use this. I will write my review as soon as get back (so that I have good photos too) I am wondering how the customer support knew that I love the color purple. VERY SMART!

As for dishysammy,

hooray for my logo. I am still studying how to root the site. Can someone help me? hahaha

I decided to start all over again cause back blogging seems very hard. I would like to thank Windows Live Writer for easier life they gave me in managing my blog.

So much for my Monday.

Sammy

P.S. I hade my lashes extended for the second time. This time only 8mm the 10mm I had two years ago was way too over the top.

Life Update: I have a new PC

Hey everyone,

I just moved to a new desktop. The office management, base on my request, I needed a faster PC. Since I am doing layouts on In design CS5 and do some edits in Photoshop, I really need an upgrade. I am now using ACER Aspire i3, 1TB HDD, 4GB RAM, 1GB Vicar; I am satisfied with the performance , so far.

I am also using Windows 7 Home Basic now, I’ve been using XP like forever and since this Windows Live Writer helps me manage all my blogs, I am still familiarizing myself with its new interface. It comes with new emoticons!!!

But unfortunately…..

I accidentally erased all my photos… I forgot that the folder on my previous PC was in private. I thought all my files were copied that is why I emptied the documents and I can surrender it to the next user…. I tried to restore them yesterday but not all photos id ion good condition….  

Lesson learned: Have the photos saved in a disc, external drive, or have it printed. I can’t believe I have 7,000 + photos…

So much for day job related errands and my other site is still not rooted. Can someone help me do it? Please.

I will be writing post on my latest food dates and I hope you’ll like it.

Kisses,

Sammy

Goodbye Lola, rest in peace

My Lola passed away yesterday.

She was sick over a year already, been in and out of the hospital several times due to her tuberculosis. All along I thought she was doing fine, she was in the hospital five days ago. Findings changed, she wasn’t eating at all, they have to put tubes inside her mouth to feed her. I never got the chance to visit her even before she died.

She died because of a heart attack and dehydration.

I wasn’t sad, maybe because she was not a stage grandmother to me, being the second set of grandchildren from her daughter.

My prayer last Thursday was to stop her pain, if she will live let her live and if she’s not going to make it anymore get her. I prayed for it for the good of everyone, my mom, being the only child, cannot afford to pay the bills anymore. And my dad been contributing to the bills as well. I only gave a couple of bucks for her meds and other expenses.

She was asking to go home as the ship will leave any minute. Finally she can rest and hopefully she’ll be with her husband, my grandfather, who died 22 years ago.

When I came to the chapel last night, I am somehow happy. She gathered the whole family, since my half siblings had their own family eight years ago, we never complete in any family occasions. Sad to say we were brought up to be timid with each other. Last night was reunion.

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I was looking for a decent photo in my album and only found two. The photo above was in San Marcelino. I don’t know how old am I in that photo.

and this photo was taken during my birthday. Thank goodness I have captured a memory with her. We used to be close, I’m the one who pulls her graying hair and color it to brown. I do her pedicure and scrubs. I am the one who listens in all her stories. I am wondering why the relationship changed. She got mad when she saw with my boyfriend when I was in college.

She compliments me a lot. She is happy because I have the knowledge to manage the house and the fact that I graduated college and now with a decent job.

Her last request to me was for me to buy my nebulizer that she can borrow. I bought that nebulizer last week but she’ll not be able to borrow it anymore.

I hope she’s in a better place now and watching over us. I hope she’ll guide my mom and the rest of the family.

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This the first death in the family I have experienced. I do not know how will I bear more in the future, I shouldn’t be afraid, I know. But I can’t imagine, maybe my sister Dyne can manage it she’s just so strong to see struggles not like me only good outside but my heart is breaking inside.

I am imagining them leaving me one by one. Very weird imagination. I know in my heart who are those person that will tear in pieces.

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God has plans. God has reasons.

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My Lola will be cremated tomorrow at 3:00 PM. I still do not know the details as I am still in the office. I will be in charge tonight.

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I would like to take this opportunity to thank people who extend their sincere condolences. I really appreciate it.

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Lastly, I want to share this photo and I am hoping we can have a new one.

Kisses,

Sammy

 

Lucresia E. Villanueva

November 7, 1942 – May 24, 2012

“I love you Lola, you will always be in my heart…”

Sam the explorer

I took a leave from work yesterday to finish personal errands. So my day went like this….

• Went to Globe Driving school and enrolled for 25 hours driving lesson (21 hours driving + 4 hours lecture on trouble shooting)
• Then I headed to Land Transportation Office (LTO) to get my Student’s Permit. Globe did assist me so after they took my photo and signature I flew away. There were a lot of people outside ambushing you and saying they will process your license. So rule here Only talk to the Guards.
• Then I went to Social Security System (SSS) to check if my ID is available to claim. I had applied for this ID November 23, 2009 and what’s the date today? it’s May 24, 2012. Can you believe how long it took for them to print an ID with micro chip? Oh well…
  it’s my favorite ID because all government ID have whether the photo was from me or taken via webcam, I look stupid. I understand that IDs are not social sites DP so I will let it pass. LOL I wonder why government employees’ age range are 40 up and why there was no queue board to flash what number is being served :(
• Then I went to PNB for the SSS Loan.
• Then went straight to COMELEC in City Hall to check if my voter’s ID is ready. I want to have all my government issued IDs. Unfortunately they told me it’s ready but not available for release. I need to come back last week of June or first week of July.

It was 2PM when I finished everything in my list and I am so hungry. My appointment with my OB is 4PM I still have more time to stroll.

• I crossed the elliptical road and went to Quezon City Memorial Circle Herbal Garden. I visited the All Organics Storeever since I watched the Bee Propolis Cream in Kapuso mo, Jessica Soho; I’ve been wanting to visit the store. I am so happy that finally I had time. I bought the cream, evening primrose oil, strawberry bearberry scrub, chocomint soap, and oatmeal & glutathione soap. I will try them and see the results before I post it in dishysammy.
• I went to Trinoma to have lunch. I ate at Tempura Japanese Grill alone. I had Katsudon Bento and California Maki. You know how much I love Japanese I do not mind eating alone. Food post here.
• After eating…. SHOPPING… I bought maxi dresses and cover ups for my upcoming Boracay vacation in June… I bought new office doll shoes as the building guard forbids me to enter the office.
• I proceed to The Medical City and wait for my OB and hopefully when I come back two weeks from now she’ll tell me the condition of my system.

I met bf and he bought me a Bora bag, Since I am on a diet we did not ate and went straight home. I cannot imagined that I accomplished everything in one day. My driving class will start on Saturday. I am really excited.

Thank you for reading lovelies for reading,

Sammy

 

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My new nebulizer

He everyone,

How's everyone doing?

I am ill. 

 

The doctor was out when I came at the Medical City Trinoma so for quick remedy for my asthma I bought my own nebulizer. I was using my niece's compressor but last week her mom took it.

It started when I ate the toblerone overload by Cakes2go then the Chillz from Ministop. Here I am suffering from cough and mild attacks at night. I also have problems with my room because it has no ventilation and the dusts, add the extreme climate change in the Metro and I am so dead.

I am also sad because I still wasn't able to up dishysammy, I need to mail my report and my work station will be replaced by a new unit (files and apps will be reinstalled). 

Snap!

 

I am still positive so I am hoping to get well and to keep on blogging.

P.S.

I am thinking of a look for my best friend she'll be attending a wedding in June. Any ideas not to overpower the bride?

Kisses,

Sammy

Middle of the week update – samlanuza is now PR 2/10

Hi everyone,

I haven’t updated my personal blog lately. I am looking for an android app for blogger and sad to say the app is not available in the Philippines. I downloaded Blogger droid but I was scared when the ‘about’ said that some part of the site might not be encrypted. I was also too lazy to start up our laptop when I get home every night.

This what made my week.

Very rewarding feedback after I got back in blogging a month ago. I have been posting my food trip every now and then. A friend of his told me to blog about Philippine street food, maybe I could to that once I manage to take more photos again.

I would like to thank my readers who finds time to read my posts. I hope you will also ready dishysammy once it’s available in the net. \

I hope could reach 10/10

I will try to update you guys regularly, I’ve been strolling the mall this past few days as I search clothes for my Boracay trip on June.

Regards everyone!

Kisses,

Sammy